A week from today is my 30th birthday. WOW, that happened fast!
About a month ago, I was really excited about my 30th birthday. I felt like I was incredibly on top of everything and that I was right where I should be for 30. I have a job I love, the beautiful house of my dreams, a boyfriend I’m crazy in love with, and a group of friends who are the best. I’ve been making a lot of progress toward making every day my perfect day, and I’ve been really happy with the results. Life is just great!
But in the last few weeks, things have kind of fallen apart. Not irreparably so, but I have just been so damn busy that I feel like I’m falling behind on everything. All this culminated in a major meltdown on Monday night at 2am, set off by some family drama, and as a result, I only got one hour of sleep that night. Not exactly the way to get me back to performing at my best!
Things have fortunately been on the upswing since then, but I still feel like I am kind of buried beneath a ton of responsibilities I’ve been neglecting. It’s not exactly the relaxed, perfect place where I thought I’d be going into my 30th year! And I’m a little disappointed in myself that I won’t have things as together as I’d like by next Friday.
That said, I’ve never been someone who’s gone too crazy for birthdays. While most of my friends have organized a big trip to the Caribbean or Mexico, or rented a hall and thrown a crazy wedding-style reception, I’m looking forward to celebrating 30 years in a much more low-key way: with a bunch of my Colorado friends doing a simple brewery tour around Denver. It’s going to be super fun, and I can’t wait!
So it seems to me that if I’m taking the low-key approach to the celebration, I really should be taking a low-key approach to the pressure I’m putting on myself to have all my obligations taken care of and things neatly wrapped up with a bow before my birthday, right? I’m taking baby steps to get things slightly back on track. It’s not all going to be stress-free by my birthday, but I think I can at least make enough progress to be able to relax and enjoy myself rather than worry about all the other things I could/should be doing.
Today and yesterday were company holidays for me, so I’m taking advantage of the days off to work on sorting out my very full work email inbox. It’s also been a great chance for me to make some headway on a really interesting report I’m writing on Colorado’s workforce of the future. Without meetings and fire drills, I can make a lot of progress!
On a personal front, I’m trying today to get my personal email down to Inbox 100. It’s a far cry from Inbox Zero, but it’s a start. I get incredibly anxious when my email inbox is overflowing, so I’m looking forward to getting it down to a manageable level – having it tamed will really prevent me from feeling overwhelmed. Once I get to 100, I’m going to then try to tackle another 20 emails per day (plus any new ones that come in) – which will get me to Inbox Zero by Wednesday and leaves me lots of room for error. Since my “work day” is just about over today and I’m only at Inbox 110, I think I may just need that margin!
Finally, I want to start getting serious this week about cleaning up my house. The construction on my basement is almost done (hoping by Thursday), and I really want to be able to enjoy the space on Friday night when I have a few friends over for dinner. There are a lot of little things around the house that I keep putting off (e.g., hanging up pictures) but that actually don’t take all that much time – so now it’s time for me to get going on GSD.
Of course, after my birthday, I want to start making sure I don’t get this swamped again – and that I’m making time for keeping up with email, house, friends, and life on a regular basis. But for now, I’m feeling a little better just knowing I’ll have things mildly under control to kick off my next decade!